Showing posts with label rough sex. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rough sex. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Erotica: Murky Water


 She stared at the murky water as it swirled around her feet.  Her shower had been draining slower and slower.  She frowned, it was getting pretty bad.  She had looked down the drain, trying to see if there was anything blocking the water, hair or something, but whatever it was it was beyond her reach.  She would have to call Mike.

She had found him just like you would find any plumber, typing in plumbing on the internet and then checking his references, even joining Angie’s list to see if people had said anything about him, good or bad.  He came with good references and was bonded and listed on the better business bureau.  He had been in business for almost ten years locally.

When he showed up, he looked exactly like she had expected him to.  Middle aged, rugged, dressed like he was here to work, in broken in jeans, work shirt with his business logo over the pocket.  He wasn’t particularly handsome or tall.  His hair was thinning and showing grey around his ears.  His hands were large and scarred and had the kind of rough, grainy skin that never looked completely clean.  At a casual glance, the only thing remarkable about him was perhaps the width of his shoulders and the way the muscles of his arms strained at the fabric of his shirt.  He had installed her new shower quickly and professionally.  It was only a few days later, when he called to see if everything was still working right, that he had asked her if she would like to get a cup of coffee sometime.

They had dated for a while, maybe six months.  But he was a bit of player and made it clear he was not all that interested in settling down with just one woman and she had not been able to come to terms with that.  They had parted on good terms, a fact she was grateful for.  After all, it was harder to find a good plumber these days than a boyfriend. 

She winced a little as she thought that last bit.  It might be not that hard to find a boyfriend, but one as good in bed as Mike was another matter.  In a lot of ways, sex with Mike had spoiled her for the attentive if insipid and predictable couplings of the guys she had dated since.  He had been anything but insipid or predictable.  He had been very up front about his likes and dislikes… she shook her head… there wasn’t anything that man had not liked.  He had told her with a matter of fact honesty that had both shocked and aroused her that he liked it rough and he liked it often.  Then he had proceeded to demonstrate exactly what he was talking about.  He had left her with a very definite taste for violent, nasty, humiliating sex.  The rougher and more demeaning the better she had liked it.

It was unfortunate that he had also liked it with a lot of different women.  If it hadn’t been for that, they might have ended up together for the long run.

Mike answered his phone promptly, his voice professional and yet warm.  He said he could come by that afternoon if she was going to be home.  She agreed and promptly called work and let them know she would be taking the afternoon off.

She took a long shower right before he was scheduled to arrive, taking the time to shave and do a deep condition on her thick red curls.  When she was done the grey water was almost up to the overflow drain and did not seem to be draining at all.  She put on a light flowered house dress that she had picked up at a local discount store, an outfit that managed to look alluring and yet plausible for hanging out at home, and one she would not mind if it got torn.  Mike had a very bad track record with buttons.  The only thing that might have signaled an ulterior intent may have been the height of the heels on her sandals or if you had managed to peek, the fact that she wore nothing else, neither underwear nor brassier.  She styled her hair and put on makeup but she did not think that Mike really ever noticed those things.  He was pretty basic, less interested in the wrapper than what was contained within.

He was exactly on time.  He knocked and waited on the porch until she opened the door.  Back when they were dating he would have just walked in like he had owned the place.  When she opened the door he grinned and his voice was just a little taunting.  “Got a bit of a drainage problem?”

“Yeah, it’s my bathtub.”

“Well, let me take a look at it.”

The water had gone down an inch or so, a ring of soap scum and tiny bits of hair from her shaving circled the sides of the tub.  He sent her an irritated look, but his voice was calm.  “Yep, definitely backed up there.”  Then he looked at her, his eyes measuring, looking her up and down.  “And you, how have you been doing?”

She shifted and blinked, suddenly a little evasive.  It was always at this moment that she got this little rush of fear, her mouth going dry and her heart thundering. 

“I’ve been fine.”  She stepped back a step. 

It was like he could smell her fear.  His grin turned just a bit feral.  “You sure?  It’s been a while since you called me.  Is there anything else you might be needing?  He paused and reached out, toying with the top button on her dress.  “You know.  All you have to do is ask.”

It was the same conversation they had had every time he came over.  She knew she had to ask.  In fact before they were done, she would have to beg.  There would not be any question of consent.  She cleared her throat nervously and tried to be a little coy, “Well, now that you mention it.  The shower isn’t the only thing that seems a little backed up.  I have another… um… bit of plumbing that could use some… um… work?”  Her voice trembled and her attempt at humor fell flat.

He stepped closer, close enough that she could feel his breath in her face, backing her into a corner.  He wasn’t a lot taller than her and in heels their eyes were level.  “Work?  What kind of work?”

She felt a shiver of nervousness.  Her voice shook a little.  “You know what I mean.”

His hand gripped the front of her dress and he pushed her hard against the wall.  “Then say it.  Tell me what you want.”

His touch seemed to break down her internal barriers and her voice was a low moan of hunger, “I want you to fuck me.  I want you take that big, hard cock and shove it into me over and over.  I want you to use me like a dirty fucking whore.”

He laughed and as he yanked down, tearing the buttons off the dress down to her waist, he stared at her naked breasts and taunted, “Yes, dirty fucking whore.  I like that.  I like that because that is exactly what you are.”  His voice was low, deliberate, enunciating each word with relish, “A… dirty… fucking… whore.”  His other hand was unbuttoning his jeans and he fished out his already swelling cock and he shook it at her.  Her eyes locked on the vision of it.  It was already bigger than any other cock she had had and she knew it would soon be bigger, a lot bigger.  God she loved the way that cock felt inside her cunt.  “So you want me to fuck you with this?”

She tried to reach for it, tried to sink to her knees to get closer but he shoved her roughly back against the wall.  “Tell me exactly what you want me to do to you.”

“I want you to fuck me with it!”

He let go of her.  “Take off the dress and get on your knees.”

There wasn’t a whole lot left holding the dress up.  It fell around her ankles easily and she dropped to her knees and crawled toward him, already opening her mouth to take him in.  But his hand in her hair stopped her barely an inch away from the massive purple head.  “Now, you dirty little whore, tell me how you want me to fuck you?”

She pulled against his grip, savoring the sting and ache of the pull on her hair.  Her voice was an agonized, gasping babble.  “I want it fast.  I want it hard.  I want it rough.  I want all of it over and over and over.  I want it like you like it.”

“Yes, you dirty little whore, of all the women I fuck, you like it the same way I do the most of all.”  She flinched a little.  He knew she did not like it when he talked about the other ones.  She also knew he talked about it for exactly that reason.  He would tell her that even if she wasn’t the prettiest or the youngest or the thinnest or had the biggest tits, that the one thing that kept him coming back was her unholy addiction to being fucked with all the violence and humiliation he wanted to dispense.

He tipped her head back and stared down at her.  “Keep that dirty whore mouth shut until I tell you different.  Do you understand?” 

She would have nodded if he did not have such a tight grip in his hair.  He pulled her close to his crotch, rubbing his cock on her face.  His voice was loud in her ears, “Can you smell it, whore?  Can you smell her?  That was why I could not come over right away.  When you called me I was already balls deep in another woman.  I was getting busy with my last customer… you ain’t the only middle aged horny bitch with plumbing problems.”

She tensed and tried to pull away, shaking her head and suddenly repulsed, but he shoved her back.  His voice harsh, “I said smell it.  Get your fucking nose deep in there, inhale it.”  And it was there, definite and strong, the smell of sex.  She shuddered and tried to fight him, but he did not relent.  He held a small dictating device down within the range of her vision.  He pushed a button and she could her voice, pathetically needy, begging to be fucked. 

“Too late to change your mind, bitch.  I got it all on tape.  You asked for it, now you are going to get it.  Now open up.”  His fingers were on her mouth, prizing her lips apart and forcing himself in.  “Open up… all the way up.”  And he pulled her up close, forcing himself deep, probing that back of her throat and deliberately forcing her to gag.      

 He talked to her the whole time as he fucked her face.  “When I fuck you today, I want you to think about that.  Think about how this cock was buried in another woman only a couple hours ago.  Think about how I am comparing how you fuck to how she fucked.  Think about the look on her face when I took that call without even missing a beat, talking to you while I was humping her cunt hard and fast.  And after I hung up, I told her I was going to come here and fuck you.  I told her that I was going to see if your cunt felt better than hers… that maybe she should work it a little harder.  You know something?  She stepped right up; she tightened up on my tool like a vice and began to thrash around like she was having a fucking epileptic seizure.”

It went on and on.  Her jaw ached and her stomach began to lurch.  Over and over when she was given a second to catch her breath, she had to swallow down mouthfuls of her own vomit.  She knew that it would not faze him, that he would not even pause if she did.  And to her humiliation, she could feel her body heat, each violent spasm of gags made her cunt tighten and she could feel the wetness ooze out of her.  It seemed the angrier he made her, the more she regretted her decision, the more degraded he made her feel the more aroused she became.  It was disgusting and infuriating and she had never been more turned on.

Over and over she felt him harden and felt the telltale tension in his body of insipient orgasm but each time he would pull her away and breathe for a minute.  His voice was low, “No hurry, bitch.  I charge by the hour.  And I got plenty left for you.  I popped me one of them little blue pills before I headed over.  Wouldn’t want you to feel like you weren’t getting your money’s worth.”

And she knew he would.  Every minute he was here would be on his bill.  This knowledge only emphasized her debasement. 

The third time he pushed her off, he sat down on the toilet and pointed at his lace up work boots.  “Take them off.”

Thankful for a few moments to catch her breath and settle her stomach, she bent to the task.  It did not take long and then he stood and kicked off his pants and pulled his shirt off.  She gazed up at him.  From this angle he looked massive.  He might not have been tall but he was broad and thickly muscled.  His abdomen was flat and rippled with muscle.  When he was not working he spent most of his time working out a local body building gym.  She knew that he would not hesitate to use his strength against her, to hold her down, bend her anyway he wished.  There was no option of refusal.  This knowledge, that there was no escape, no way out, that if she did not cooperate, he would just force her was what she craved more than anything else.

Even though she knew he could do anything, his next move took her by surprise.  Again it was a demonstration of his strength.  In a heartbeat the fingers of only one hand wrapped around her throat and lifted her clear up off her feet.  She hung there, and for just an instant looked down at him, her eyes met his.  She could not breathe, but somehow that seemed okay, her whole body felt limp, even boneless.  He tipped his head and a tiny smirk made the corner of his mouth twitch and his eyes slid past her to the tub.

There was a surreal sense of weightlessness and for a microsecond she wondered if she was getting any blood flow to her brain.  She did not even notice that her shoes had slipped off her feet until he put her down and spun her around to face away.  She stumbled and went to her knees and before she realized his intent he had her bent forward over the cold porcelain edge of the bathtub, her face only inches from the scummy water.  She could hear him doing something, and she glanced back over her shoulder and saw him tearing open a condom wrapper with his teeth.  His eyes were a strange yet thrilling mix of pent up rage and sheer lustful enjoyment.

“What you staring at, whore?”  His free hand shot forward and she flinched, fearful that he was going to strike her, but instead he put his hand on her head and shoved it down, forcing her whole face down into the cool, grey water, down until it was pressed hard against the bottom of the tub.  She struggled to lift up her head, but he was too strong.  She could her him laughing, the mocking sound strangely loud as it passed through the water filling her ears.

He gripped her hair and lifted her head up, leaning over her, pinning her down, trapping her, his voice low and nasty in her ears as she gasped and coughed.  “Dirty water for a dirty whore.”

She could feel him position himself, the blunt end of his cock nudging at the opening of her cunt.  His hand yanked back violently on her hair as he lunged forward, his thrust literally a punch in her gut.  She could not help but let out a deep oof as the air was forced from her lungs.  She felt her cunt hole stretch around his cock, felt him bottom out against her cervix hard.  It sent a deep, agonizing cramp through her womb.  Her sudden exhalation changed to a deep groaning yelp that was cut off as he pushed her head down into the water again. 

One hand held her head down and the other gripped her hip.  He began to pound her, deep, relentless thrusts that made her insides churn.  She did her best to keep her mouth and eyes shut, praying that he would not let her drown; telling herself that he would not want the trouble of having to dispose of her body.  And if she did die, who would pay his bill?  But the fear was there, the fear and disgust as the sensation of the cold, slimy water, and something about it, the helplessness, the vulnerability, the sudden awareness that he could kill her and she could not do anything about it made cunt seize up around his cock and she was coming, coming like it was perhaps the last orgasm of her life.  Her arms flailed in the water, splashing, she screamed under the water and choked. 

He jerked her head up and growled in short sharp grunts as he lunged against her.  “Careful, whore, not done with you yet.” 

But she hardly heard him over her own words, primal, harsh words that seemed to be forced from her lips by each invasion.  It did not even sound like her voice, low and hoarse, she was growling out the words, “Fuck it!  Fuck it!  Fuck my cunt!  Harder!  More!  God damn it, is that all you have?”  She braced herself against the far side of the tub and lunged back at him.       

“You want more?  You dirty, insatiable, greedy whore, I will give you more.  Take a deep breath, you are going under again.”  And true to his word as soon as she inhaled he pushed her head down again. 

Spurred on by her words, he began to go at her with a wild ferocity.  She could hear him grunting and snarling, “More?  More?  You want more?”  He shifted turning slightly and put one foot into the tub, stepping on her hair and using his both hands to grip her thighs and spread them wider.  He was over her now, ramming at her, swiveling his hips, stabbing at her from different angles.  It felt like he was trying to crawl inside her.  The thrusts were getting faster, harder and even deeper.  It felt like her insides were being pummeled, like he was going at her with a bat. 

If she strained hard, she could just barely lift her face enough to steal a gasp of air but each time he slammed into her, her face was forced down again.  She could her him cursing, calling her names, telling her what a sad fuck she was, and hearing those words, hearing the rage and disgust, she was coming again, her scream bubbling up in the filthy water.

As usual he seemed tireless.  Fucking Mike was like a marathon, he always seemed to take a long time to finish and she knew that if he had been with another woman earlier, that this was not the first time of the day, it would take even longer.  She knew she was in for a long ride, but this was what she wanted… it had been a long time since she had been fucked like this and she wanted it to last.  She knew as long as he was in the saddle she would be coming, coming hard, over and over.

To her oxygen starved brain, time seemed to stand still… the act endless.  It was as if all existence had been reduced to this moment.  She had always been here.  He had always been here.  Sensory input was reduced to a strange series of still images… a flickering, crazy quilt of moments, words and sensations…   

As usual, he did not come inside her cunt.  He pulled out and yanked her hair, pulling her up and jerking off inches from her face.  She squeezed her eyes shut.  He grunted as he came.  It felt hot as it hit her skin.  She could feel it as it slipped down her wet skin and dripped onto her chest.  She hung there, suspended in his grip, swaying, gasping.  When she licked her lips she could taste him.

He shoved her backwards toward the water, upending her until she was lying in the slimy grey water.  He stood over her, his hand still on his big, meaty cock… working it… a nasty smirk on his face.  His voice did not hold quite the same amount of venom but the words still stung… “Proper place for a dirty whore.”


She stood in the bathroom, wrapped in her thick bathrobe, rubbing a towel at her hair, watching him as he efficiently worked the snake down the drain. 

“You are a fucking bastard, you know.”

He did not look up from the task.  “That is why you call me.”

He pulled a big, nasty clump of hair out of the drain.  He frowned and looked at it.  His thick fingers were surprisingly deft as he plucked out a sparkling hair barrette and handed it to her.  “This was the problem.”

She turned to barrette over in her hand and shrugged, she watched as the water swirled down the drain and he rinsed out the tub.

His expression did not change as she looked over the bill and wrote the check.

He was professionalism incarnate.  “Call me if you need me.”  They both knew what that meant.


She carefully put the barrette away for the next time.






        



Friday, April 2, 2010

Make It Last, Makeit real.

A piece of erotica I wrote a few months ago. Enjoy.

She didn’t know how long she had lain there, drifting between her thoughts and dreams. Seconds, minutes, hours had become meaningless concepts. Time was tracked by his intrusions into her solitude. Eternities of dreamy, floating, endless waiting would be suddenly shattered by assaults of sensation. It was all sensation. She could not see. She could not hear. She could not move. All she could do was feel his touch upon her skin. She never knew what to expect when he pulled the heavy blanket off her. The slither of the rough fabric as he exposed her bound and tortured body would tear from her reverie, baring her to his whim.

Sometimes she would shriek in terrified panic. Sometimes she begged for him to free her, forgetting her promises to not speak, forgetting her pleading with him to do this thing to her. But he never wavered, never once spoke or made a sound beyond the soft grunts of effort as he used and abused her body. Worst of all was the not knowing, the uncertainty.

Sometimes he would beat her, inflicting long agonizing beatings upon her body. Beating her until she could not scream or cry, until exhaustion from the pain would numb her and pull her down, sinking below the surging sea of pain.

Sometimes he would attend to her physical needs, washing her, changing the diaper, putting the tube between her lips so she might suck down the liquid nutrient drinks he concocted to keep her body alive.

Sometimes he would rut upon her, using her body to relieve himself, fucking her endlessly. He brutally hammered at her with his body, using all her holes until they ached and burned, ignoring her cries, cries of pain, cries of passion.

Sometimes he would just sit and run his hands along her body. Slowly, sensually he would stroke her sensitized skin, petting her, soothing her.

But worst of all was when the blanket would be pulled back and he would do nothing. She did not know if he walked away or stayed there looking down at her, staring at the thing he had made of her.

When she had first described her fantasy to him and begged for this, pled for this. He had been reluctant, ambivalent, even angry at times at this obsession of hers.

“Please, I need it. I need to know what it is like. You don’t know how much I think about this.”

“But that is crazy. You have no idea. You will go crazy.” And the worst of all, “I don’t think I can do that to you. I love you too much.”

Finally she had dropped the subject or at least pretended to drop the subject. Without his knowledge she cleared the small room in the basement. She had bought the narrow cot and dug the heavy coarse blanket out of the store room. When he wasn’t home she would lie there, face down. She bought the head phones and the white noise generator. She would lie with her arms outstretched, pretending they were bound, pressed down by the heavy scratchy blanket. She wished it was heavier. Somehow she wanted to be compressed, smashed, pressed down and she worked at sewing a weighted quilt, filled with pounds of carefully stitched in washers from the hardware store.

She would lie there naked, quiet, alone, fantasizing that she was tied there, tied there for days, even weeks, for as long as he wanted. The he in her fantasy always had his face but deep inside he was darker, harsher, twisted, and cruel. He would hurt her solely for his sadistic pleasure. He would keep her as a convenient fuck hole. Transforming her into an object, a place to plunge his cock, selfishly taking anything and everything he wanted. He would reduce her to a thing, a thing that writhed and screamed and suffered just for him.
He must have noticed the bed in the corner of the store room. But he did not say anything, did not acknowledge its presence in their lives. She never lay there when he was home or she expected him home, but his business kept him away for long periods of time.

One day she was there, deep in her dreams. Her blindfold on, the white noise blanking out any sound from the house, her hands twisted in the ropes when she felt the bed move, sag under the weight of another. She convulsed in sudden guilty terror, trying to get up but his hands had held her down, pushing her flat, holding her brutally crushed to the thin mattress. Over the sound of the white noise she had heard his voice, loud and somehow angry. “How long have you been here like this?”

The force of his grip on her body and the rage in his voice both terrified and excited her. Her breathless answer sounded strange, muted, “I don’t know, a couple hours?”

The heavy blanket was lifted up, up from the base of the bed baring her legs and ass, the weight of it dumped down upon her head and shoulders. The air felt shockingly cold on her naked skin. He growled something but it was hard to tell what and she flinched violently as he struck her ass with his bare hand, spanking her hard, harder than he ever had before when she had begged for it in the bedroom. She could not help but scream but he did not seem to hear her. He hit her over and over, beat her until his hands ached and then pulled his belt from his waist and lashed her with it. She had writhed and howled in panicked shrieks but she did not once let go of the faux knots that she had looped around her wrists, she did not once beg him to stop.

He had beaten her until she could not move and then he had thrown himself upon her, his body weight infinitely heavier than the blanket, his hard cock stabbing brutally into her. His hands had been iron hard on her hips, lifting her ass up, his knees shoving her thighs grotesquely wide. There had been no tenderness, no touching, no warning. It was fast, hard, primitive fucking. It was the animalistic raging rape of her body she had always fantasized about. He had battered her burning cunt with his cock and then without any discussion or even a word of warning pulled out and forced himself full length into her ass.

She did not think she had the strength to scream again but as she felt him rip into her she found her voice once again. And she heard him laugh harshly, mirthlessly at her cry. He yelled something about her wanting this and if it were possible lunged against her even more violently. It seemed to last forever and she wondered if he would ever finish. Each thrust deep into her ass felt like she was tearing apart and she lay flattened under his assault, whimpering, begging for him to finish. And yet when he did, when he stopped and jerked free, spraying her buttocks and ass with his come, she felt a wave of frustrated sadness crash over her. She really did not want it to stop, she wanted it to get worse, hurt worse, humiliate more. She wanted it to go on forever. A wild irrational thought rose up, she wished the room were full of men, dozens of men all waiting to do that and more, far, far more to her.

When he pulled the blanket off her head, had taken the head phones from her ears and growled in her ear, “That what you wanted bitch? Was that enough? Are you fucking satisfied now?” She had clenched her hands on the ropes and shaken her head violently.

Her yell of, “No!” rose up from the very depths of her soul.
He had stilled for an instant and then spoke in a very calm voice, his lips close to her ear. “Then stay here. Don’t move. Don’t get up.”

He put the head phones back on and pulled the blanket up over her and left her.

She had lain there savoring the sting and burn of her body. Her whole back, ass and legs practically sizzled with the welts and pain of his beating. He had beaten her many times before, but never like this. She could tell she was bruised. She could feel the blood still leaking out of the capillaries under her skin. Her cunt and asshole felt raw. She had dreamed of this moment for years and now that it was here it was so much more than she had ever dared to hope. Slowly she deliberately writhed against the rough weave of the blanket, savoring the way the prickly wool scraped and itched at her wounds. As she relived each moment, each blow, each wave of agony the reality of it began to strike home and she could feel a strange kind of wild exhilaration build in her belly. When she thought about his use of her ass, the moment she realized he was going to do it, take her there, when she felt the tip of his cock find its path and the sudden raging burning stab of agony as he had slammed it deep in one brutal thrust she stiffened and groaned softly with the memory.

She must have slept but it was difficult to know. She had been lying lost in her dreams when the blanket was torn from her body again. He had ripped the headphones from her head. He had yanked her hips up again, and placed the head of his cock against her asshole. His voice had sounded loud in her ears, “Have you had enough? Are you satisfied?”
Her voice sounded raw and terrified but once again the only thing she could say was, “No!” And she squalled in a strange mix of terror and triumph as she felt him lunge deep into her. If anything, it hurt a dozen times worse than the last time. Her ass was horribly sore and this time he was dry. It felt like a knife, a dozen knives were stabbing into her. She hated it and because she hated it, it was perfect. It went on and on and on. It felt like he must have fucked her for what seemed hours. Her mind was a red haze of agony when he finally shoved deep and came. His come burned inside her like acid.

Slowly she became aware that sometime while he had been on her, in her, she had lost control of her bladder and urinated on the mattress underneath her. He seemed to take no notice. He whispered in her ear, “Okay, I am not going to ask you again. Are you satisfied yet?”

She could not help but whimper as she shook her head no.
“Then you must stay here.” He put the blanket gently over her body.

He had not replaced the headphones and she could hear him walk away. She could hear his footsteps in the rooms above, the sound of the shower and finally the sound of him driving away. She was still there. She had not moved an inch when he returned in the evening.

He had come down and pulled the blanket off her, pulled her hands free from the tangle of loops she had fashioned only a day ago to pretend she was bound. He took away the blindfold and the earphones. Gently he had called her name and begged her to get up, to come with him upstairs to eat and take a shower. “Please, come upstairs. We need to talk.”

She had moved stiffly, her eyes refusing to focus in the bright light. But she had followed him up and out of the darkness. Everything upstairs had seemed strange, dreamlike, unsubstantial. She found herself reaching out to touch more than one mundane thing that had shared her existence for decades like she had never seen it before, like she was not sure if it was really there. He had taken her into the shower with him, tenderly bathing her and then holding her close under the falling water, he had wept. His voice was hoarse. “Sweetheart, I need you up here with me.” She had not answered but held him, stroking his back, mutely rocking him in his misery.

In many ways life went back to normal. But she did not feel the same inside. Things upstairs, things in the light seemed different now. Food tasted different, in many ways more sweet, but at the same time more filling. Everyday tasks took on an importance they had never held before. She felt calmer and more thoughtful. She sat for long periods of time with her eyes closed just listening to the sounds around her.

He was more attentive, in many ways gentler and he made love to her endlessly. It was as if he could not get enough of her. Her body seemed more attuned to his caresses, responding effortlessly to his touch. Always before she had been impatient with his tenderness, begging for pain, harshness, intensity but now, now she could finally feel the love as they came together.

It may have been weeks or maybe even months before it began to call at her again. And eventually her mind slipped back down the stairs into the darkness and she began dream again of being tied, taken, forced; dream of being made into a thing again. She replaced the mattress, covering this one in plastic. This time she deliberately stayed down there for him to find her. He had touched her back and asked, “Again?”

Her answer was hoarse with need, “Please, I need it.”

Gradually, they developed a pattern. They each found something in the dark there that fed their souls. While he never started it, he learned to see the need build up inside her, and could sense his building in tune with hers. She had learned to take him by the hand and lead him down, wordlessly holding the old and now tattered weighted quilt in a silent plea to begin again. He had learned he could do it if he completely divorced himself from the awareness that this was her, his wife, the one he loved and cherished above all others.

He had made some changes in the room to help him hide her face and asked her not to speak. He had bought a leather hood. The bed was replaced with a complex padded wrack that kept her upper body perfectly restrained, covered and remote, but left her lower body accessible to him. And he learned he needed it as much as her, needed to hurt, needed to use. He never gagged her. He loved to hear her scream. And he learned that once she forgot and began to talk that she was reaching her limit, and was finally satisfied, at least until the next time. It worked, the more she spoke the more he remembered it was her. And while he never really started it, he was always the one that ended it. And once they had sated their inner demons, they found the light of their other lives to be brighter, clearer, all the more precious.

This last time, as he had led her down the stairs she had spoken her last words to him before climbing onto the wrack he had built, “Make it last. Make it real.”

… and she didn’t know how long she had lain there, drifting between her thoughts and dreams. Seconds, minutes, hours had become meaningless concepts. Time was tracked by his intrusions into her solitude. Eternities of dreamy, floating, endless waiting would be suddenly shattered by assaults of sensation. It was all sensation. She could not see. She could not hear. She could not move. All she could do was feel his touch upon her skin. She never knew what to expect when he pulled the heavy blanket off her. The slither of the rough fabric as he exposed her bound and tortured body would tear from her reverie, baring her to his whim...