The daily and not so daily ramblings of my life, creativity, relationship with my husband and the rest of the world.
Warning: This is about my whole life, real and fantasy, and may contain adult content. Read at your own risk.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Heigh-Ho.... Off to work...
I wish that my job was as simple as digging diamond out a deep dark mine... or at least as straight forward. But it ain't. It's messy and complicated and sometimes hard to tell if you are doing anything right.
And after a couple weeks staying home it is hard to go back. As much as I know that working is better for me, gets me up and out of the house, gives me a schedule and sense of purpose, it is always an adjustment when I first go back after a break. I am totally used up by the time I get home. By the time I get my chores done... I am empty. I can't think of anything witty or thought provoking or even sexy to write on my blog. I can hardly think at all.
It is a process I go through the first couple of days back. And to tell you the truth, it is the same for the kids. They all seem a little shell shocked and very out of control... which drains me even more.
I am home today. I am not sure if it is a blessing or a curse, but I have a dentist appointment right in the middle of the day so I am taking the whole day. I have a long list of things that I procrastinated about for those two weeks, errands, bills, bank... (like I have said many times before, unstructured time just does not work for me. I am a deadline type of girl.)
And I have already gotten a good start. And the last two things on the list are get my nails done and then go for a nice long walk around the Mall with permission to buy a pair of earrings.
Old enough to know better, young enough not to care. I am in a long term, heterosexual, monogamous, formerly total power exchange relationship with my husband. We are exploring where we go from here. I am a once published writer of erotic fetish fiction novels.